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- Copyright Colin Low 1992 (cal@hplb.hpl.hp.com)
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- Chapter 4: The Sephiroth (continued)
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- This chapter provides a detailed look at each of the ten
- sephiroth and draws together material scattered over previous
- chapters.
-
- Binah, Chokmah, Kether
- -----------------------
-
- Only man can fall from God
- Only man.
-
- No animal, no beast nor creeping thing
- no cobra nor hyaena nor scorpion nor hideous white ant
- can slip entirely through the fingers of the hands of god
- into the abyss of self-knowledge,
- knowledge of the self-apart-from-god.
-
- For the knowledge of the self-apart-from-God
- is an abyss down which the soul can slip
- writhing and twisting in all the revolutions
- of the unfinished plunge
- of self-awareness, now apart from God, falling
- fathomless, fathomless, self-consciousness wriggling
- writhing deeper and deeper in all the minutiae of self-
- knowledge, downwards, exhaustive,
- yet never, never coming to the bottom, for there is no
- bottom;
- zigzagging down like the fizzle from a finished rocket
- the frizzling, falling fire that cannot go out, dropping
- wearily,
- neither can it reach the depth
- for the depth is bottomless,
- so it wriggles its way even further down, further down
- at last in sheer horror of not being able to leave off
- knowing itself, knowing itself apart from God, falling.
-
- "Only Man", D. H. Lawrence
-
-
- The triad of Binah, Chokmah and Kether are a Kabbalistic
- representation of the manifest God. A discussion on this triad
- presents me with a problem. The problem is that while I have used
- the word "God" in many places in these notes, I have done so with
- a sense of unease, understanding that the word means so many
- different things to so many people that it is effectively
- meaningless. I have chosen to use the word as a placeholder for
- personal experience, with the implicit assumption that the reader
- understands that "God" *is* a personal experience, and not an
- ill-defined abstraction one "believes in". My view is not novel,
- but there are still many people who are uncomfortable with the
- idea of experiencing (as opposed to "believing in") God. A second
- assumption implicit in the use of the word "God" as a placeholder
- is that it stands *only* for experience; your experience, and
- hence your God, is as valid as mine, and as there are no formal
- definitions, there is no scope for theological debate or dispute.
- This leaves me with nothing more to say.
- However.....these notes were intended to provide some
- insight into Kabbalah, and it would be odd, having begun to write
- them, to then turn around and say "sorry, I won't say anything
- about the three supernal sephiroth". I think I have to say
- something. Balanced against this is my original intention, at
- every stage in these notes, to relate the objects of discussion
- to something real, to make a personal contribution by adding my
- own understanding to the subject rather than simply pot-boiling
- the same old material. I cannot see how to put flesh on the bare
- bones of the supernal sephiroth without discussing my own
- conception of God and whatever personal experience I might have.
- I am loth to do this. For a start, it isn't fair on those people
- who study and use Kabbalah (many Jewish) who do not share my
- views, and secondly, remembering the parable of the blind men and
- the elephant, impressions of God tend to be shaped by the part
- one grabs hold of, and how close to the bum end one is standing.
- Like it or not, my explanations of the supernal sephiroth
- are going to be lacking in substance. I can only ask you, the
- reader, to accept that the primary purpose of Kabbalah has always
- been the direct, personal experience of the living God, a state
- Kabbalists have called "devekuth", or cleaving to God, and the
- way towards that experience comes, not from a studious
- examination of the symbolism of the supernals, but from the
- practical techniques of Kabbalah to be discussed in a later
- chapter.
-
- The title of the sephira Binah is translated as
- "understanding", and sometimes as "intelligence". The title of
- the sephira Chokmah translates as "wisdom", and that of Kether
- translates as "crown". These three sephiroth are often referred
- to as the supernal sephiroth, or simply the supernals, and they
- represent that aspect of God which is manifest in creation. There
- is another aspect of God in Kabbalah, the "real God" or En Soph;
- although En Soph is responsible for the creation of the universe,
- En Soph manifests to us only in the limited form of the sephira
- Kether. An enormous amount of effort has gone into "explaining"
- this process: one book on Kabbalah [1] in my possession devotes
- eight pages to the En Soph, twelve pages to the supernal trio of
- Kether, Chokmah and Binah, and five pages to the remaining seven
- sephiroth, a proportion which seems relatively constant
- throughout Kabbalistic literature.
- Briefly, the hidden God or En Soph crystallised a point
- which is the sephira Kether. In most versions (and this idea can
- be found as far back as the "Bahir" [2]) the En Soph "contracted"
- (tsimtsum) to "make room" for the creation, and the crystallised
- point of Kether manifested within this "space". Kether is the
- seed planted in nothingness from which the creation springs - an
- interesting metaphor turns the Tree of Life "upside down" and
- shows Kether at the bottom of the Tree, rooted in the soil of the
- En Soph, with the rest of the sephiroth forming the trunk,
- branches and leaves. Another metaphor shows Kether connected to
- the En Soph by a "thread of light", a metaphor I used somewhat
- whimsically in the section on "Daath and the Abyss", where I
- portrayed the Tree of Life as a lit-up Christmas tree with a
- power cord snaking out of the darkness of the En Soph and through
- the abyss to Kether. Like the Moon, Kether has two aspects:
- manifest and hidden, and for this reason its magical image is
- that of a face seen in profile: one side of the face (the right
- side, as it happens) is visible to us, but the other side is
- turned forever towards the En Soph.
- Kether has many titles: Existence of Existences, Concealed
- of the Concealed, Ancient of Ancients, Ancient of Days,
- Primordial Point, the Smooth Point, the Point within the Circle,
- the Most High, the Inscrutable Height, the Vast Countenance (Arik
- Anpin), the White Head, the Head which is not, Macroprosopus.
- Taken together, these titles imply that Kether is the first, the
- oldest, the root of existence, remote, and its most accurate
- symbol is that of a point. Kether precedes all forms of
- existence, all differentiation and distinction, all polarity.
- Kether contains everything in potential, like a seed that sprouts
- and grows into a Tree, not once, but continuously. Kether is both
- root and seed. Because it precedes all forms and contains all
- opposites it is not *like* anything. You can say it contains
- infinite goodness, but then you have to say that it contains
- infinite evil. Wrapped up in Kether is all the love in the world,
- and wrapped around the love is all the hate. Kether is an
- outpouring of purest, radiant light, but equally it is the
- profoundest stygian dark. And it is none of these things; it
- precedes all form or polarity, and its Virtue is unity. It is a
- point without extension or qualities, but it contains all
- creation within it as an unformed potential.
- The "Zohar" [3] is packed with references to Kether, and it
- is difficult to be selective, but the following quote from the
- "Lesser Holy Assembly", is clear, simple, and subtle:
-
- "He (Kether) hath been formed, and yet as it were He hath
- not been formed. He hath been conformed so that he may
- sustain all things; yet is He not formed, seeing that He is
- not discovered.
-
- When He is conformed He produceth nine Lights, which shine
- forth from Him, from his conformation.
-
- And from Himself those Lights shine forth, and they emit
- flames, and they rush forth and are extended on every side,
- like as from an elevated lantern the rays of light stream
- down on every side.
-
- And those rays of light, which are extended, when anyone
- draweth near unto them so that they may be examined, are not
- found, and there is only the lantern alone."
-
- Polarity is contained within Kether in the form of Chokmah and
- Binah, the Wisdom and Understanding of God, and Kabbalists have
- represented this polarity using the most obvious of metaphors,
- that of male and female. Chokmah is Abba, the Father, and Binah
- is Aima, the Mother, and the entire world is seen as the child of
- the continuous and never-ending coupling of this divine pair. The
- following passage is taken again from the "Lesser Holy Assembly":
-
- "Come and behold. When the Most Holy Ancient One, the
- Concealed with all Concealments (Kether), desired to be
- formed forth, He conformed all things under the form of Male
- and Female; and in such place wherein Male and Female are
- comprehended.
-
- For they could not permanently exist save in another aspect
- of the Male and Female (their countenances being joined
- together).
-
- And this Wisdom (Chokmah) embracing all things, when it
- goeth forth and shineth forth from the Most Holy Ancient
- One, shineth not save under the form of Male and Female.
- Therefore is this Wisdom extended, and it is found that it
- equally becometh Male and Female.
-
- ChKMH AB BINH AM: Chokmah is the Father and Binah is the
- Mother, and therein are Chokmah, Wisdom, and Binah,
- Understanding, counterbalanced together in the most perfect
- equality of Male and Female.
-
- And therefore are all things established in the equality of
- Male and Female, for were it not so, how could they subsist!
-
- This beginning is the Father of all things; the Father of
- all Fathers; and both are mutually bound together, and the
- one path shineth into the other - Chokmah, Wisdom, as the
- Father; Binah, Understanding, as the Mother.
-
- It is written, Prov. 2.3: 'If thou callest Binah the
- Mother."
-
- When They are associated together They generate, and are
- expanded in truth.
-
- And concerning the continuing act of procreation:
-
- "Together They (Chokmah & Binah) go forth, together They are
- at rest; the one ceaseth not from the other, and the one is
- never taken away from the other.
-
- And therefore is it written, Gen 2.10: 'And a river went
- forth from Eden' - i.e. properly speaking, it continually
- goeth forth and never faileth."
-
- A river or spring metaphor is often used for Chokmah, to
- emphasise the continuous nature of creation. The primary metaphor
- is that of a phallus - Chokmah is the phallus which ejaculates
- continuously into the womb of Binah, and Binah in turn gives
- birth to phenomenal reality. Phallic symbols - a standing stone,
- a fireman's hose, a fountain, a spear etc, belong to Chokmah, and
- womb symbols - a cauldron, a gourd, a chalice, an oven etc,
- belong to Binah. In an abstract sense, Chokmah and Binah
- correspond to the first, primal manifestation of the polarity of
- force and form. To repeat a metaphor I have used previously,
- Binah is a hot-air balloon, and Chokmah is the roaring blast of
- flame which keeps it in the air. The metaphor is not completely
- accurate: Binah is not form, but she is the Mother of Form - she
- creates the condition whereby form can manifest.
- The colour of Binah is black, and she is associated with
- Shabbatai ("rest"), the planet Saturn. The symbolism of Binah is
- twofold: on one hand she is Aima, the fertile mother of creation,
- and on the other hand she is the mother of finiteness,
- limitation, restriction, boundaries, time, space, law, fate, and
- ultimately, death; in this form she is often depicted as Ama the
- Crone, who broods (like many pictures of Queen Victoria) in her
- black widow's weeds on the throne of creation - one of the titles
- of Binah is Khorsia, the Throne.
- The magician and Kabbalist Dion Fortune had a strongly
- intuitive grasp of Binah, not just as a sphere of a particular
- kind of emanation, but as the Great Mother herself, as the
- following rhyme from her novel "Moon Magic" [4] shows:
-
- "I am she who ere the earth was formed
- Was Rhea, Binah, Ge.
- I am that soundless, boundless, bitter sea
- Out of whose deeps life wells eternally.
- Astarte, Aphrodite, Ashtoreth -
- Giver of life and bringer in of death;
- Hera in heaven, on earth Persephone;
- Diana of the ways, and Hecate -
- All these am I, and they are seen in me.
- The hour of the high full moon draws near;
- I hear the invoking words, hear and appear -
- Shaddai El Chai and Rhea, Binah, Ge -
- I come unto the priest who calleth me - "
-
- One of the oldest correspondences for Binah is the element of
- water, and she is called Marah, the bitter sea from which all
- life comes and must return. She is also the Superior or Greater
- Mother; the Inferior or Lesser Mother is the sephira Malkuth, who
- is better symbolised by nature goddesses of the earth itself -
- e.g. the trinity of Kore, Demeter, and Persephone. The Tree of
- Life has many goddess symbols, and it is not always easy to see
- where they fit:
-
- Binah is the Great Mother of All, with symbols of space,
- time, fate, spinning, weaving, cauldrons etc.
-
- Malkuth is the Earth as the soil from which life springs,
- matter as the basis for life, the spirit concealed in
- matter, best symbolised by goddesses of this earth,
- fertility, vegetation etc.
-
- Yesod in its lunar aspect is the Moon, a hidden reality with
- the ebb and flow of secret tides, illusion, glamour, sexual
- reproduction etc, and is sometimes in invoked in the form of
- lunar goddesses - Selene, Artemis etc.
-
- Gevurah is on the Pillar of Form; the whole Pillar has a
- female aspect, and Gevurah is sometimes invoked in a female
- form as Kali, Durga, Hecate, or the Morrigan, although it
- must be said that all four goddesses also share definite
- Binah-type correspondences.
-
- Netzach has the planet Venus as a correspondence, and its
- aspect of sensual pleasure, luxury, sexual love and desire
- is sometime invoked through a goddess such as Venus or
- Aphrodite.
-
- The Spiritual Experience of Binah is the Vision of Sorrow:
- as the Mother of Form Binah is also the Mother of finiteness and
- limitation, of determinism, of cause and effect. Every quality
- comes forth hand-in-hand with its opposite: life and death, joy
- and despair, love and hate, order and chaos, so that it is not
- possible to find an anchor in life. For every reason to live I
- can find you, buried like a worm in an apple, a reason not to
- live; the Vision of Sorrow is a vision of a life condemned to
- tramp along the circumference of a circle while forever denied a
- view of the unity of the centre. At its most extreme the creation
- is seen as an evil trick played by a malign demiurge, a sick,
- empty joke, or a joyless prison with death the only release. The
- classic vision of sorrow is that of Siddhartha Gautama, but
- Tolstoy records [5] a terrible and enduring psychic experience
- which contains most of the elements associated with the worst
- Binah can offer - it drove him to the very edge of suicide.
- The Illusion of Binah is death; that is, the vision of Binah
- may be compelling, but it is one-sided, a half-truth, and the
- finiteness it reveals is an illusion. Our own personal finiteness
- is an illusion.
- The Qlippoth of Binah is fatalism, the belief that we are
- imprisoned in the mechanical causality of form, and not only are
- we incapable of changing or achieving anything, but even if we
- could, there wouldn't be any point. Why try to be happy -
- happiness leads inexorably to sadness. Why try to build and
- create - it all ends in decay and ruin soon enough. As the author
- of "Ecclesiastes" says, all is vanity.
- The Vice of Binah is avarice. Form is only one-half of the
- equation of life - change is the other half - and to try to
- hold onto and preserve form at the expense of change would be the
- death of all life. The Virtue of Binah is silence. Beyond form
- there are no concepts, ideas, abstractions, or words.
-
- The Spiritual Experience of Chokmah is the Vision of God
- Face-to-Face. The tradition I received has it that one cannot
- have this vision while incarnate i.e. one dies in the process.
- One Hasidic Rabbi liked to bid farewell to his family each
- morning as if it was his last - he feared he might die of ecstacy
- during the day. In the "Greater Holy Assembly" [3], three Rabbis
- pass away in ecstacy, and in the "Lesser Holy Assembly" [3] the
- famous Rabbi Simeon ben Yohai passes away at the conclusion.
- There is a fairly widespread belief that to look on the naked
- face of God, or a God, means death, but fortunately there is no
- historical evidence to suggest that the majority of Kabbalists
- died of anything other than natural causes. Having said that, I
- would not like to underplay the naked rawness of Chokmah;
- unconstrained, unconfined, free of form, it is the creative power
- which sustains the universe, and talk of death is not
- melodramatic.
- The Illusion of Chokmah is independence; at the level of
- Binah we seem to be locked in form, separate and finite, but just
- as death is seen to be an illusion so ultimately is our
- independence and free-will. We *seem* to be independent, and we
- *seem* to have free-will, but at the level of Chokmah we draw our
- water from the same well.
- The Virtue of Chokmah is good, and the Vice is evil.
- Regardless of your definition of good or evil, Chokmah
- encompasses every possibility of action, circumstance and
- creation, and modern Kabbalists no longer try to believe God is
- good, and evil must reside elsewhere. Medieval Kabbalists liked
- to hedge their bets, but one has only to plumb the bottomless
- depths of personal good and evil to find they spring from the
- same place.
- The Qlippoth of Chokmah is arbitrariness. The raw, creative,
- unconstrained energy of God at its most primal and dynamic can
- seem utterly arbitrary and chaotic, and some authors [e.g. [6]]
- have seen it this way. This removes the "divine will" from the
- energy and leaves a blind, directionless and essentially
- mechanical force which is unbiased - creation and destruction,
- order and chaos, who cares? The Kabbalistic view is that this is
- not so: Chokmah contains form (as Binah) *in potential*, and it
- is not correct to view Chokmah as a purely chaotic energy. It is
- an energy biased towards an end - "God's Will", for lack of a
- better description.
-
- The Spiritual Experience of Kether is Union with God. My
- comments on the Spiritual Experience of Chokmah apply also to
- Kether. The Illusion of Kether is attainment. We can live, we can
- change, but there is nothing to attain. Even Union with God is no
- attainment; we were always one with God, and *knowing* that we
- are changes nothing of any consequence - as long as we live,
- there is no goal in life other than living itself. As the
- Kabbalist Rebbe Nachman of Breslov said [7]:
-
- "No matter how high one reaches, there is still the next
- step. Therefore, we never know anything, and still do not
- attain the true goal. This is a very deep and mysterious
- concept."
-
- The Qlippoth of Kether is Futility. Perhaps the creation was a
- bad idea. Maybe the En Soph should never have emanated the point-
- crown of Kether. Perhaps the whole of creation, life, the entire,
- ghastly three-ring circus we are forced to endure is nothing more
- than *a complete waste*. The En Soph should suck Malkuth back
- into Kether, collapse the whole, crazy house of cards, and admit
- the mistake.
-
- The God-name of Binah is Elohim, a feminine noun with a
- masculine plural ending. When we read in the Bible "In the
- beginning created God...", this God is Elohim. The name Elohim is
- associated with all the sephiroth on the Pillar of Form, and is
- taken to represent the feminine aspect of God. The God-name of
- Chokmah is Yah (YH), a shortened form of YHVH. The God-name of
- Kether is Eheieh, a name sometimes translated as "I am", and more
- often as "I will be".
- The archangel of Binah is Tzaphqiel; I have been told this
- means "Shroud of God", but I have not been able to verify this.
- If it does not mean "Shroud of God", it most certainly should.
- The archangel of Chokmah is Ratziel, the Herald of the Deity.
- According to tradition, the wisdom of God and the deepest secrets
- of the creation were inscribed on a sapphire which is in the
- keeping of the archangel Ratziel, and this "Book of Ratziel" was
- given to Adam and handed down through the generations [8]. The
- archangel of Kether is Metatron, the Archangel of the Presence.
- According to tradition Metatron was once the man Enoch, who was
- so wise he was taken by God and made a prince among the angels.
- The angel orders of Binah, Chokmah and Kether can be derived
- directly from the vision of Ezekiel. In the Biblical text,
- Ezekiel describes successively the Holy Living Creatures, the
- great wheels within wheels, and lastly the throne-chariot
- (Merkabah) of God. The vision of Ezekiel had a great influence on
- early Kabbalah, and it is no coincidence that the angel order of
- Binah is the Aralim, or Thrones, the angel order of Chokmah is
- the Auphanim or Wheels, and the angel order of Kether is the
- Chiaoth ha Qadesh, or Holy Living Creatures. The forms of the
- Chiaoth ha Qadesh - lion, eagle, man and ox - have survived to
- this day in many Christian churches, and can be found on the
- "World" card of most Tarot packs.
-
- It is difficult to grasp the nature of Chokmah and Binah
- from symbols alone, just as it is difficult to grasp interstellar
- distances, the energy output of a star, the number of stars in a
- galaxy, and the number of galaxies visible to us. The scale of
- the observable physical universe relative to our planet (and the
- planet is a big place for most of us) is staggering; there are
- something like a hundred stars in *our galaxy alone* for every
- person on this planet. When I think of Chokmah and Binah I
- attempt to think of them on this scale; the physical universe
- where we have our home, considered as Malkuth, is vast,
- mysterious, and contains inconceivable energies - to consider the
- Father and Mother of creation on any less a scale seems arrogant
- to me. Which brings me to the question "Can one experience, or be
- initiated into, the supernal sephiroth?".
- If the Kabbalah is to be considered as based on experience,
- and not an intellectual construction, then the answer has to be
- "yes". The supernals represent something real. What do they
- represent? Is it possible to "cross the Abyss"? The answers to
- these questions depends on which Kabbalistic model one chooses to
- use, and precisely how one interprets the Tree of Life. For the
- sake of argument I have chosen three alternative models:
-
- Model A: the sephira Malkuth represents the whole physical
- universe; the sephiroth from Yesod to Chesed (the
- Microprosopus) represent a sentient, self-conscious
- being; the supernals represent the God of the whole
- universe, God-in-the-Large.
-
- Model B: the Tree of Life is a model of human consciousness; the
- supernals represent the God within, God-in-the-Small.
-
- Model C: the Tree of Life exists in the four worlds of the
- creation, namely Atziluth, Briah, Yetzirah, and Assiah.
- When talking of "the Tree", we are talking about "the
- Tree of Yetzirah"; "The Abyss" is in fact "the Abyss of
- Yetzirah" only.
-
- All three models can be found in Kabbalistic writing, and it is
- rarely clear which version an author is using at any given time.
- I admit the fault myself. Model A differs radically from Models B
- and C: Model A is an all-embracing model of everything, whereas
- in Models B and C the Tree has been applied recursively to
- a component of the whole, namely a human being considered a
- divine spark. This is a valid (if confusing) Kabbalistic
- technique: take a whole, and find a new Tree in each of its
- components; apply the method recursively until you generate
- enough detail to explain anything. This idea is summed up in the
- aphorism: "there is a Tree in every sephiroth".
- Is it possible to experience the supernals in Model A? I
- would say that it is only possible to experience them at a remove
- via the paths crossing over the Abyss from Tipheret; that is,
- as a living, incarnate being my consciousness rises no further up
- the Pillar of Consciousness than Tiphereth (or Daath), but it is
- possible to apprehend the supernals via the linking paths. To
- experience the consciousness of Binah in this model would be
- tantamount to being able to modify the physical constants of
- nature - Planck's constant, the speed of light, the Gravitational
- constant, the ratio of masses of particles etc. - the
- consequences don't bear thinking about! To experience Chokmah
- would be to experience the force which underpins a billion
- galaxies. I do not believe even the most arrogant twentieth
- century magician would claim to have achieved either of these
- initiations - the continuing existence of the planet is probably
- the best evidence for that.
- Model B is a model of the Microprosopus *as a complete
- Tree*. There is some evidence in the "Zohar" that the author
- thought about the Macroprosopus and Microprosopus in precisely
- this way, with references to "the greater Chokmah" and "the
- lesser Chokmah". Model C is substantially similar to Model B, but
- cast in a slightly different model. With this interpretation it
- is certainly possible to consider "the lesser Chokmah" as an
- accessible state of consciousness, but "the Greater Chokmah"
- remains as in Model A; that is, we can experience the God within,
- "God-in-the-Small", and experience our essential unity with all
- other living beings considered as "Gods-in-the-Small", but beyond
- that lies a greater mystery, that of "God-in-the-Large". We may
- each be a chip off the old block, but individually we are not
- *identical* with the old block.
- This discussion may seem arcane, but there is a natural
- tendency in people to exalt spiritual experience to the highest
- level, which does nothing more than inflate and devalue the
- currency of the language we use to describe these experiences.
- The universe is too large, too mysterious, and too full of
- infinite possibilities of wonder for anyone to claim initiation
- into Malkuth, far less Kether.
-
- Lastly, it is worth asking "what *is* God?". What does the
- Kabbalistic trinity of Kether, Chokmah and Binah represent *in
- reality*? I have deliberately avoided mentioning an enormous
- amount of Kabbalistic material on these three sephiroth because
- it is not clear whether it contributes to a genuine
- understanding. How useful, for example, is it to know that the
- name Binah (BINH) contains not only IH (Yod, He), the letters
- representing Chokmah and Binah, but also BN, Ben, the son? There
- is a level of understanding Kabbalah which is intellectual, and
- capable of almost inifinite elaboration, but it leads nowhere.
- What experience or perception does the word "God" denote? If
- there is nothing which is not God, why are so many people
- searching for God? Why do so many people feel apart from God? I
- quoted D.H. Lawrence's poem "Only Man" because of his deeply
- intuitive view of the Fall from God and the abyss of separation.
- I was browsing in my local occult bookshop recently, a shop
- which contains a catholic selection of books covering Eastern
- religions, astrology, Tarot, shamanism, crystals, theosophy,
- magick, Celtic and Grail traditions, mythology, Kabbalah,
- witchcraft, and so on. I am not sure what I was looking for, but
- despite a couple of hours of browsing I certainly did not find
- it. What did strike me was the extent to which so many of these
- books were written to make human beings *feel good* about
- themselves. There is a smug view permeating so much occult
- literature that "spiritual" human beings are a little bit more
- "advanced" or "developed" than the pack, that they are "moving
- along the Path" towards some kind of "enlightenment", "cosmic
- consciousness", "union with God", "divine love", or one of many
- more fantastic and utterly sublime goals. It is all so empowering
- and affirming and cosy. Even in the less starry-eyed and gushy
- works the view is predominantly, almost exclusively human-
- centred, and I found it difficult to avoid the impression that
- the universe was designed as a foam-padded playground for human
- souls to romp around in. There is more than a little truth in
- Marx's statement that religion is the opium of the people, and a
- cynic could justify a claim that occultism and esoteric religion
- are little more than a security blanket for unfortunate people
- who cannot look reality in the face. Where are the books which
- say "you are an insignificant speck of flyshit in a universe so
- vast you cannot even begin to comprehend its scale; your occult
- pretensions amount to nothing and are carefully designed to
- protect you from any experience of reality; all human experience
- and knowledge is parochial, insignificant and largely irrelevant
- on a universal scale, and your personal contribution even more
- so; there are no Masters or Powers, no Secret Chiefs, no Inner
- Plane Adepti, no Messiahs, and God does not love you; the only
- thing you possess is your life, and the joy and mystery of living
- in a universe filled to the brim with life, where little is known
- and much remains to be discovered; when you die, you are dead." I
- do not concur with this position in its entirity, but it is a
- valid position to adopt, and one which is not strongly
- represented in esoteric and occult literature. Why not? Perhaps
- people do not want to buy books which say this. I will venture an
- opinion which reflects my own experience; as such it has no
- general validity, but it is worth recording nevertheless.
- I believe that many religious, esoteric and occult
- traditions currently extant are unconsciously designed to protect
- human beings from experiencing God and lead towards experiences
- which are valid in themselves but which are biased towards
- feelings of love, protection, peace, safety, personal growth,
- community and empowerment, all wrapped up in a strongly human-
- centred value system where positive *human* feelings and
- experiences are emphasised. I believe that people are apart from
- God by choice, that they cannot find God because *they do not
- want to*.
- It is difficult to justify this statement without resorting
- to an onion-skin model of the psyche; underneath the surface,
- unsuspected and virtually inaccessible, is a layer which does its
- best to protect us from the existential terror of confronting
- things as they really are. As a child I was terrified of the
- dark; the dark itself was not malign, but I was deeply afraid,
- and in this case it was fear which determined my relationship
- with the dark, not any quality of the dark itself. So it is with
- God - it is our deeply buried and unrecognised fear which
- determines our relationship with God. We read books, go to the
- cinema and theatre, argue, invent, throw parties, play games,
- search for God, live and love together, and bury ourselves in all
- the distractions of human society in a frenetic and unceasing
- effort to avoid the layers of fear - fear of solitude, fear of
- rejection, fear of disease and decay and disintregration, fear of
- madness, fear of meaninglessness, arbitrariness and futility,
- fear of death and personal annihilation. Like an audience in a
- cinema, we can live in a fantasy for a time and forget that it is
- dark, cold and raining outside, but sooner or later we have to
- leave our seats. And underneath all the fears is the fear of
- opening the door which conceals the awful truth: that we have
- wilfully, and with great energy and persistence, chosen *not to
- know*.
-
- [1] Ponce, Charles, "Kabbalah", Garnstone Press, 1974.
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- [2] Kaplan, Aryeh, "The Bahir", Samuel Weiser 1989.
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- [3] Mather, S.L., "The Kabbalah Unveiled", RKP 1970
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- [4] Fortune, Dion, "Moon Magic", Star Books, 1976
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- [5] James, William, "The Varieties of Religious Experience",
- Fontana 1974
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- [6] Peter J. Carroll, "Liber Null & Psychonaut", Samuel Weiser 1987
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- [7] Epstein, Perle, "Kabbalah", Shambhala 1978
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- [8] Graves, Robert, & Patai, Raphael, "Hebrew Myths, the Book
- of Genesis", Arena 1989
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- Copyright Colin Low 1991
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